a note on studies. i just realized that my CGPA is way too low to b o any use to me in d future... esp if i wnna take Masters in d future. *work hard work hard*
Last night, i was asked by 4 different friends, whether i was ok? That's not a normal question, is it? Ppl ask if you'r hungry, sleepy, healthy, etc, but not if you'r ok. Unless i banged my head or sneezed 10 times in a row. Which i didnt. It wasnt even one o my emo nights. I was perfectly sane and contented. But i couldnt answer them. I didnt say, yes i'm ok, or of cuz im ok! I just fielded their questions.
Surprisingly i had a sudden urge to cry when i heard that question. And when i went to bed (finally! at 330am), i just started crying. It doesnt hurt bad, it's just sad.
I did what Ying2, Mic and all my LnL friends would tell me to do in any situation. I prayed to whoever's Up There, b it Jesus, God or Mother Mary. Or any Saints. And i got an answer! Or rather, this idea that came out o nowhere and stopped my tears when i think o it. But it's so impossible! And totally not something i would do. Couldnt help but to ask Him if he was actually serious?!?!
I am to reconcile w my "ex". As in, reverse d break up. Go back to being an item.
Apparently there are some unfinished business there that d Big Guy wants me to do.
oh, God.
你要复合吗？还是只是做回朋友？
ReplyDelete亲爱的，做什么事都要想回上次做这个决定时的理由。事情一天没有解决，始终还是会存在。
that day i post "拒绝向负能量妥协！请给我大大的笑容。" on my wall. Then a friend asked me whether i am okay. Really feel warm when i heard the question. =))
ReplyDeleteThis kind of friend is great. isn't it?
I'm blurr:O
ReplyDeleteI tot u decided to 'break up' b'cuz you think he doesn't suit you?? 0.0 hmm..do you actually prefer to reverse to the previous state?
And yea, what's the unfinished bussines? haha, I wonder =P
Anyway, stay strong dear! Rmb we are oways here to support you, muacks ^.^