love and relationships

wow, it's been 22 days since my last post. Time really flies when I'm working.
More on work later.
This post is more panda-talk-ish *grins*.


What is boy/girl love exactly?

Is it love, the times I spent w Panda?
We did not go on dates, or see each other a lot; instead we texted and called each other to talk about everything under the sun. I loved when he understands me even when I blubber over the most insignificant things and the random way I pick a song to describe my day.
Missing him is more o a constant ache than a sudden jolt.


Do I like>love him?!
A person whom I can pick out instantly in a crowd, and, apparently, finds me just as easily (don't ask me how I know =p). I don't need or want to see him nor chat w him every day, even when we do it's not like a whole night thing; and we text only for valid reasons. But seeing him instantly makes my day brighter.
Verdict >> Nah.. He's an awesome friend, one I an count on always.


Does he like me as more than a friend?
Okay, this guy's a good friend. I was w him through his unfulfilled love quest and he's the neutral ground for me and d ex. Nowadays he's the person I call when I need help or want lunch (esp when my aforementioned coupled friends go off being a couple).. Kinda like a special 隔壁桌 buddy (as Miss Kirsten would put it, my "best friend"). And he's the most supportive among my friends. Even when people judge or criticize me, he gives me a "Sarah Chong!!" and leaves it at that. Haha honestly I think I'm getting more and more paranoid.. Having a guy as a special-level best friend does not automatically put him in a like me/like him category.
Verdict >> Rationally... I don't think/hope so. I'm not his type at all..


What'm I gnna do bout this guy?
I quite sure about this one.. At least, I've got a strong hunch, and you know what they say bout girls' instincts. There are just too many factors that make him less o a "very-friendly and helpful" friend and more to "I like you what can I do for you?".
Then again who am I to judge the 'strength' o friendships? Maybe going out o their way to FOLLOW ppl home (I was driving; he followed in his car) despite having no sleep for bout 40 hours is a common thing betw friends.
Verdict >> I don't care. I'm not going to send him wrong signals but I'm definitely NOT going to pick up his.


What happened to the "promise"?
I wasn't sure that he's serious, and seeing that I'm not that interested anyway... I'm gnna drop it and not think about it anymore. No more dreading the day~


Yes, Sarah is being decidedly perasan. But why not? It's not like I'm obsessed w it.. Just good for pre-sleep musings =p

today's mood equation

> I'm caught between cramps and studio rush. Need I explain more? T.T

>> I complain too much =(

>>> Got myself a haircut ytd =D

>>>> Hubby is back in M'sia =D

>>>>> I acually like what I'm doing =)

>>>>>> There is no time to actually enjoy what I'm doing ='(

>>>>>>> I've not been replying to txts for almost a week now =(

>>>>>>> Sarah is in an adrenaline-fueled working mood =D

I'm not like crazy happy, but d plus factors outweigh the -ve's. GOOD ^^