Happy 31st!

Happy New Year in advance! Gotta go play keyboard in church later, so I better type this in advance =)

I'm not gnna complain bout having to play for mass on NEW YEARS EVE and New Years Day, cuz I did volunteer to do it... by being in d choir. Anyway going to church is supposed to b a healthy, spiritual thing. But yea, learning to say no more often now. Like Nic said, mayb i needed to be needed~ Getting away fr this need now..



Went out for late lunch w sunshine @ Food Foundry. Food was awesome as usual, esp d vanilla crepe cake we had for dessert *takes a mo to bliss*
Conversation was as usual too, he was telling me drinking stories and all. Halfway thru he did mention that we (d 2 o us) are kinda like Yin and Yang.. Yep, we're that different.
Setting myself up for disappointment if I let myself hope for things, but hey, what's a crush for huh?
Now, more than anything, I think we'r better off as good friends.



Things were well after that couple o breakdowns before presentation/camp. Went for presentation, finished and submitted my portfolio, and then went for Love and Life 2011, just like that. I refuse to remember d feelings I went thru that day.
Will blog more bout camp when I've more time.



Time is a luxury nowadays. For my internship at an Ar firm in ss15, I've to go in for work every day Mon-Fri, 8.45am-5.45pm. Days are thus a repetition o work and sleep ("dropping dead on bed" is perhaps a better description).. Have little time and energy left for anything else.

- time for church. cont later, goodbye 2011 anyways~~





-back fr church, about to head to bed-

To wrap up 2011.. I think d thing I've been doing d most is to (try to) b brave and to think less.
Won't say I'm hugely successful most o d time, but at d very least I'm making a conscious effort to achieve them ;)


Goodbye, singles 20. I don't know what 2012 will bring, but I know I've grown and am a lil step closer to being d best me =D





Dears, thanks for being w me and supporting me throughout this year.
I've made mistakes, deliberately not do stuff, and been lazy and stubborn sometimes. I apologize for that, and will strive to do better. Bear w me a lil longer while I try to b perfect k~




Looking forward to 2012 now, which will be Insha Allah/Deo Volente... as God wills it. What will come, will come; what I can do is to make d most o it.. live it to d fullest =)





Now, to bed! And 8 hours o sleep wheeeeee~ Nitez all ^^

late night before final submission/day before LnL11'

... 1.30am

I think point 1 I'd like to get across is sometimes I'm not looking for solutions. In a break down kind o stage right now, and ppl're telling me to jiayou and suggested ideas to help me out.


To tell d truth I can think for myself pretty well and I'd not hesitate to ask for help if I need it.
All I want is some sympathy, a hug if I can get one, and a shoulder (virtual or otherwise) to cry on.
Cuz I really need to cry right now.




As always before final presentation, I tell myself that I've no time to emo and lose control.
But this time it's also d day before Love and Life 2011, in which I'll b a faci. I can't afford to hold it in now.. cuz there's NO WAY I'm gnna break down DURING camp.




10

15

30 mins?

That's all d time I can afford. Go and let yourself go, sarah, but b back in half an hour.

 

 

 

 

... 5.50am

Listening to Colbie Caillat I Do (as well as a whole playlist o country music @@) while working. Had my cry, had a nap on d living room sofa. Long story, bro kept virgil till I'm really really awake and working <3

4 more hours before Nic is supposed to pick up my files for printing. I think I can finish by then. Not so sure about him getting my printing done for me. Does seem like asking alot, esp if he's coming especially to collect them.

Nvm. Will do my thinking at camp, if I've time. Now is for working.