Shucks, man

...... IT'S FRIDAY NIGHT.
Since internship, I run thru the same scene every Friday evening. To party or not to party?
Yall know I'm no party person. Being in crowds and being jolly takes alot outta me, but the feeling of going home straight after work on FRIDAY sucks. bad.

Some guys from office are going for a launch party (Seamasters paint) tonight, and we're all invited. My classmates/fellow-trainees aren't going and I know my colleagues're gnna leave there drunk late (therefore no chance of hitching a ride), so I declined.

Thought of going shopping, but no sales anywhere and  I've already been through the bookstore.
Thought of going somewhere for drinks, but didn't have no suitable company.
Frustrated much! Go home, eat, read, facebook, sleep. That's a WEEKDAY NIGHT, not for Fridays.





- 9.38pm
Went for Sushi King, drank green tea while Benson had dinner. Took the bus home, dinner, gonna type some stuff for mom, read, sleep.
GAHH.

Love and Life 11' followup camp tmr! At least that's something to look forward to =)

Randomly texting him was a bit of a slip/weakness on my part. I shall not do it again.

How much longer

Maybe that's not the question to ask. Only God knows how long it'd take and He's not sharing.
Was just watching How I Met Your Mother (got to season 2!), it took Marshall 67 days to mend his broken heart over a 9 year engagement. W/o going on a rebound for another girl. That's tv dramas for you!



I don't have a broken heart. Just trying to get used to not having someone around.
There goes~~ It's been like playing The Game, where the only rule is that you're not supposed to think about it. That's just it! There's no way you can stop yourself fr forming a thought.
The human mind is just amazing, and no science can convince me that thoughts are totally divine.



Baby step #2
Waking up fr a nightmare early this morn and not texting the first person I wanted to. In fact, I managed to keep myself away fr the phone to not text anyone at all =)
sarah is learning to take care o her own problems~~







Day 7.

baby step #1

Rereading old posts do you no good, sarah. Face it, accept it and get on w your life~



Had abit o girls talk w 姐姐 just now, were talking bout our (individual) big steps. Me as a single, and her as part of a couple.
There are just too many factors in love/like/crush. Romantic novels never got it right, there's just too many factors in our everyday lives for a happily ever after all the time! But happy relationships are that becuz ppl love each other and overcome every obstacle when it comes.


Guess if I can't cross this hurdle I'm not good enough for anything. Hence my further resolve for my bigger step.


Btw wnna know what my big step of the day is?
Watching How I Met Your Mother, which was given to me by sunshine quite some time ago, and NOT excitedly sharing my thoughts w him. In fact, I did not even click on his green icon.
Exactly what I said in my last post--- replacing a thought with another... w a twist. That is, when I wanted to talk to someone, instead I talked to another.



Control yourself girl. "Guard your heart above all else". Ganbateh.