more o self-comfort

im under stress.
really i am.

but who actually admits that?!??





i like sketching and ive produced some "not bad" sketches this week.
at least one can actually recognize what i draw!
but i do get depressed when i look up and realize how far behind i still am.



i want to learn and practice my AutoCad drawings.
d only way to do that is to go on Cad-ing everything i can get my hands on.
but what if d whole group is waiting for me to produce d drawings?


i need to practice my piano in time for next sunday's mass.
im really a disgrace to d Grd 8 merit for taking so much time to learn one song.
but every moment not used to sketch or to Cad is filled w guilt.


ive got a S.Sch lesson to prepare for my std 5 class whom i'd b meeting for d first time this sunday.
ive not even openned my textbk yet.
but likewise d excuse above, i keep putting it off.




i admit that im a coward.
i do not dare to face my ex/boy/friend ive just turned down after half a year.
esp becuz im not crushed by d breaking up.
i go on smiling, laughing, talking and eating like before.
just not reading his msges or thinking bout d things we did together.
even if he's not d right guy, everything he's done for me should count for something.





i actually hav a tutorial session for my sketches for d past hour.
i just.......... need time to b alone.. to type and to say a prayer.