What's the feeling?

.... the kind that comes to you only at night when you're lying in bed telling yourself you have exactly 8 hours to sleep. So fall asleep Sarah. Now. Sleep. But sleep doesn't come and the feeling does. 

Have recovered somewhat from my lil bout of emo, though not completely. I still have things on my mind. Not entirely happy just yet. 

Thank you my Dear for picking me up after dinner and sending me to the mall just to get my stuff. And being patient when I realised I forgot my card (bad Sarah 😠). A little shopping at Tesco and then dessert. Only because I insisted. For being the most indulgent bf ever. Love these impromptu dates. Makes my heart all fuzzy when he says, where you, I come over now can? <33

Researched accommodation today. And packed a little more. Got into disagreement w dad over Baobei. I assure you, bringing panda is not a sign o immaturity. Pls don't be prejudiced against him just because he's a soft toy. I want him w me because he's a piece of home, geddit? It's not my first time away from home (6 years in high sch hostel remember?) and I know homesickness can hit real hard just when you think you're old and mature enough to handle it. Who are you to deny me something to hold on to in a foreign land? I'll find a way to pack him in. Totally. 

Sigh. There goes le tears again. 6 days to end of work. 30 days or less to arriving at my new life. Where there will be noone to wipe my tears for me. Asking me not to cry is futile. I would definitely cry. Just praying God will get me through it like He does in everything else. 

Just get me through a day at a time, ok God?