Mid sem crit

It was hard. I stayed over at my classmate Nad's for four days, eating mechanically and sleeping only a few hours a day. Until I ko-ed at 6am on presentation day.

But it was worth it. For once I really loved my building and though I did a great job. Not that I didn't make little mistakes here and there, and that I would love to have had time to photoshop a bit more, but all things considered, I guess I should give myself a pat and say well done.



Posted this on fb, but I really just want post my thanks again to-
.. Nadeera. For putting up w me, feeding me, and listening to my "in your honest opinions, dyou prefer..".

.. my boo. Dear, I have tried to be strong and independent but sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on, or someone to give me a boost now and then. Thank you for your support the last few days.

.. Ivy. For bringing me food and being a good friends.

.. Helen. For your prayers. Comforting especially at 3am.

.. Guo Yi. For 'proofreading'.






Also, thank you God, for everything.

I want my boo

I don't need chicken soup or dinner sent to my table, or hugs and admonitions to eat/sleep well, or even having a hand to hold while I sit thru my busiest and most stressful time of the semester.. I don't need all that, but why couldn't you have given me just a bit more love? As is, weekends are spent telling me to work while driving to church/friend's house, or playing games while I talk to your ceiling. Weekdays mostly wake up calls and good night calls to report on my progress on work or your work problems.

I want more than that. I agree that I need all my time for work, but I do take breaks. When I wait for my file to save, or for my laptop to finish restarting. While I wait for the bus. In the three minutes my instant noodles is cooking. While I eat my dinner. Why couldn't you have put more thought into what little time I have? Tell me about the bible verse you read today, or describe a new song you heard on the radio. Ask me if I cooked, or where I did my work today. Is the weather warm enough to wear shorts? Have I started working on my facades yet? Little questions. Not just how's work, or how many percent done. Not even how are you. Ask specific questions. Tell me specific answers. Elaborate. Improvise.

But if you don't think it necessary, never mind I asked. I've got to get back to work anyway.
















Update
I'm sorry I complained, and I understand now how you wished our relationship were. I suppose I could handle it, if that is how you wanted it to be.

#3positivethings- just wondering aloud

Have completed the #3positivethings challenge- in fact, since I couldn't find the origins of the challenge, I wasn't even sure if I was supposed to do it for 3 days, as I was tagged, or a week, as some Instagram users were doing. No matter, I am glad that I took the time to think about the positive things in my days.

Having done what I were asked to... now what? That always seem to be the question for most challenges. I remember back in high school when I fasted for Lent, a friend asked what was the purpose of fasting, or of giving up meat for 40 days? Was I a better person for that? Did my life change after that? I cannot remember what I said in reply to her.

However it is interesting, isn't it, why we do things, especially good, self-sacrificing things? Because we want to... at that time? Because it is the right thing to do? Because it may make us a better person, then again it may not?

Challenge: Day 6 & 7 #3positivethings

Appeared to have skipped a day.. It was because I overslept on Day 6 and rushed off to work. Shall just combine the days and come up 6 positive things in my day. 

8/9

1. Studio day. Woke up early like 2am to do work. Loves early morning work conditions. 

2. Had a bit of breakdown thinking about work but ze bf was there to give counsel and virtual hugs. *thanks dear*

3. Tutorial went alright. I made up some stuff as I went but the tutors either couldn't tell or didn't bother calling me out on them. No negative comments although not many positive ones either. No news is good news?

9/9

4. Had sunny side up and spam on toast with Mayo for brunch.

5. Met up w Nad and went to the state library to do work. Found a really nice spot at the museum cafe and worked there till they closed/our laptops ran out o juice. Then moved into the state library. Got a seat next to the windows (river view!) and worked till the library in turn closed.

6. Put in quite a bit o working hours today. Productive day. 

7. Jayesslee uploaded a new cover! Well actually it's really short but harmony was terrific as usual and I have missed their funny comments. Also saw their (adorable) babies who were part o the reason they took a long hiatus. More than 15 months, I heard, although I didn't really count. 

Challenge: Day 5 #3positivethings

1. Sermon was good. Learnt a bit more about Jesus and the role he plays in our lives.

2. Did the last Christianity Explained session with Helen by the Manors pool! It was pretty awesome and deserves a post by itself

3. Helen lent me a book to read. Yay new reads!

4. My Pooh spent time on FaceTime w me, just me listening to his zombie/virus-spreading game play and him looking up at my ceiling. Fun times <3

5. FaceTime-d le family at night while they're gathered at my aunt's for the Mid Autumn Festival. Received instructions for a Chinese/Nyonya/Malaysian dessert 'Bubur Cha Cha'. Will make that soon!

6. Saw a family of ducks! Here have a picture. It totally made my day ^^

Family of ducks

Challenge: Day 4 #3positivethings

1. Passed the 1500 word count for my report! Definitely time to stop writing Sarah. 

2. Had minced meat + egg roll for lunch. It was surprisingly yum. 

3. Went for YF at P. Ben's place. It's nice and cozy and Deuteronomy was a good read. 

So stressed about work tho. So much to do and so little energy. 

Challenge: Day 3 #3positivethings

Seems to be a good practice to write this early in the morning when I wake up. Positive thinking!

1. Got a bit further on my bible reading plan. Psalm 91- My Refuge and my Fortress <3

2. Research report coming along just fine. Although now I've got too many words.... hmm. 

3. Spring is coming! Glad to stop dreading the shower but I do love my black stockings and boots..

Eye still hurting badly but Lord I'm glad I'm alive and able to complete most o my tasks. I don't wnna whine, I truly don't, yet please take this pain away, if it is your will.