Single Awareness Day

Yep, it's a S.A.D. day..
More commonly known as Valentine's Day.
But for those who've yet to meet their prospective other half, or whose other half is M.I.A., this just serves to remind them o how much, if any, they are missing.


I remember back in high school, being all girls, there wasn't anyone to propose to, or receive flowers from, so we would exchange chocolates as a token o our friendship.
As for the Wifeys, Hubbys/Lovers and "Other Half"s, a card would be in order to demonstrate their special place in our hearts.
It was a very loving day for us, during which is okay to hug/shake hands/be extra affectionate. All platonic, that is.


During my internship, I went on a "date" w a fellow intern, Yuki, at..... the bookstore.
All day I was waiting for an invite *cough*, but none turned up.  So at 6pm sharp, we left office, sat thru the jam, and went book-shopping/1Msia-book-voucher-spending.
It was fun, really. Yuki and I were previously "just classmates", but this day brought our relationship closer.. sharing gossip can do that to people =p


Dear is still in his hometown, due back tomorrow. Sigh. Then again I guess it's not a big deal about the actual day. 是晴天 是雨天 天天都是好天 after all.
Anyway Himself isn't a "Valentine's" kinda person. Will just keep myself company in my pink, pink room. *big hug to myself*


Happy Valentine's/Friendship Day to all my readers too! Thank you all for being a special part o my life <3

mutterings

In the middle o my Btech 2 resubmission, I felt so upset o w the world that I could've screamed. For things that should and should not have been in my control.



Control, what is control? Is anything ever in our hands?



At 12.30am, Dear called from home after his company's annual dinner and a conversation between a tipsy and a sleepy ensued.




I am so tired. My life in Limbo.





God, please.

what good is it

... to yell and shout and grumble?

Dear Significant Other,
Our Children shall never be greeted first thing when we return fr work w "Why didn't you do this? and that?". They shall be taught to assume responsibilities fr a young age, including the younger and the youngest. They shall be praised for their achievements and gently reminded for their shortcomings. Breakfast is sacred, no bad things shall be allowed to interrupt it.



I woke up real hungry on a Saturday morning. There was no food in the house so I made some scones for the family. Mom and Dad returned fr the market. I was greeted w, "Why didn't you sweep up the mess your dog made on the porch?", and then "your room is so untidy, yada-yada, blah blah blah, etc". I rushed to clean up the mess and tidy my room. Dad woke Sis up to eat the food they bought fr the market w no mention o chores, untidy room, unfolded blanket. Sis asked why my scones got burnt in the oven. I am upset. I am now hiding in my room to do work instead o spending time w my family.







Just because they are my elders doesn't mean they are always right.
Just because they are younger doesn't mean they don't have responsibilities.


Then again, I had my fun Friday. I guess I'm to be content.
God says be patient. And let others trample over me? I guess so.

pain

It's been days and yes I've seen the doctor who gave me an okay, told me there's nothing wrong w me except some stress. "Stress-induced migraine" and "must drink more water and rest more".
Yet I spent the past two nights on my living room sofa, waking up at 6am to crawl back to my bed, under orders not to sleep in the AC room I shared w sis.

My thanks to Tham2 and Bunny who took me out to lunch, then accompanied me to the clinic and pharmacy, becuz Dear wasn't free and I didn't want the family to find out.
 

Bless me Lord, and bid this dretful headache and nausea leave me.






Funny really, how much I enjoy baking. Even while seeing stars I'm glad to have mix butter and sugar and cocoa powder. Must b the sweet tooth.
Off to bake now.

Still not satisfied

Saying this just days after telling the Dear to always be satisfied w what he has, is just alil unfair. Still.

Mom stopped me from going out for lunch w my uni friends earlier today. I found it mean, as I've done my chores in the morning and will not be spending too much time/money. It was just lunch. Her excuse was that I have more chores to do. Dafuq?
So in defiance I spent my afternoon in bed w a book and a facial mask.


My life is good, seriously. I get to sleep, eat, exercise, read, cross-stitch, paint my nails and write. I've made a list o to-dos and am regularly striking things off fr it.
My only complaint is this,
I am grounded not becuz I wrecked a part o my mom's car, but cuz I have chores. NEVER-ENDING CHORES. Like mom kindly told me, when I ask her why she had to mop the floor when I've done that ytd, we need to shower every day.
While my classmates travel to places, or just hang out tgt, I stay at home and sew curtains and stuff.
I am young, w no cash but plenty o energy and enthusiasm. Therefore I stay at home? There is no sense in this. It is meaningless.




Therefore I am not satisfied.

DAIM

Alternating betw breaking down and throwing tantrums.
I. AM. SO. SICK. OF. THIS.
I wnna sleep on my bed, w the lights off and don't care when I wake up.
I wnna spend time w my dad on his off days and bro/sis on their hols.
I wnna eat and drink and play w/o worrying bout wasting time.

 

DAIM IT I AM TIRED.

For now

Report done and submitted, with about 40 pages to Huey's 70. But it's the best I could do in such a short time. Unbelievably I've now got a fully constructed building, in the 3 weeks since my last design didnt pass. For this I thank God. And give myself a pat on the head.


However.
Having 30 pages o report less than others does not bode well. I hope I can scrape a pass. Otherwise will just have to resubmit and my results will not be good T.T
God, I really hope.


Now panels. And then model. My fav part. And finally this sem, after a long drought o 3 semesters, I promise myself to stop using sketchup print screens and RENDER my 3d model.



And then off to shop!
Shoes Xmas dress Lipstick Movie the hobbit wheee Screen protector for phone Iphone5 case for dad
And all my Christmas shoppings.


But let's finish my panels first =)