Still not satisfied

Saying this just days after telling the Dear to always be satisfied w what he has, is just alil unfair. Still.

Mom stopped me from going out for lunch w my uni friends earlier today. I found it mean, as I've done my chores in the morning and will not be spending too much time/money. It was just lunch. Her excuse was that I have more chores to do. Dafuq?
So in defiance I spent my afternoon in bed w a book and a facial mask.


My life is good, seriously. I get to sleep, eat, exercise, read, cross-stitch, paint my nails and write. I've made a list o to-dos and am regularly striking things off fr it.
My only complaint is this,
I am grounded not becuz I wrecked a part o my mom's car, but cuz I have chores. NEVER-ENDING CHORES. Like mom kindly told me, when I ask her why she had to mop the floor when I've done that ytd, we need to shower every day.
While my classmates travel to places, or just hang out tgt, I stay at home and sew curtains and stuff.
I am young, w no cash but plenty o energy and enthusiasm. Therefore I stay at home? There is no sense in this. It is meaningless.




Therefore I am not satisfied.

DAIM

Alternating betw breaking down and throwing tantrums.
I. AM. SO. SICK. OF. THIS.
I wnna sleep on my bed, w the lights off and don't care when I wake up.
I wnna spend time w my dad on his off days and bro/sis on their hols.
I wnna eat and drink and play w/o worrying bout wasting time.

 

DAIM IT I AM TIRED.

For now

Report done and submitted, with about 40 pages to Huey's 70. But it's the best I could do in such a short time. Unbelievably I've now got a fully constructed building, in the 3 weeks since my last design didnt pass. For this I thank God. And give myself a pat on the head.


However.
Having 30 pages o report less than others does not bode well. I hope I can scrape a pass. Otherwise will just have to resubmit and my results will not be good T.T
God, I really hope.


Now panels. And then model. My fav part. And finally this sem, after a long drought o 3 semesters, I promise myself to stop using sketchup print screens and RENDER my 3d model.



And then off to shop!
Shoes Xmas dress Lipstick Movie the hobbit wheee Screen protector for phone Iphone5 case for dad
And all my Christmas shoppings.


But let's finish my panels first =)

Things to do

... now:
1. plans
1.1 column grid
1.2 openings ie door windows
1.3 site plan
1.4 roof plan
1.4.1 inclination angle, fall, drainage
1.5 drops
1.6 finishes
1.7 floor traps etc
1.8 annotations
1.9 car park
19.1 numbering
19.2 carpark calculation UBBL
1.10 circulation (carpark, stairs)
1.11 sewerage/manholes/drains
1.12 security
1.13 labels (name, area sqm, FFL)
1.14 furniture
1.15 fire stairs
2. section
2.1 annotations
2.2 finishes
2.3 floor levels
3. elevations
3.1 facade design
3.2 materials, embodied energy (report), precast lightweight foamed concrete sandwich panel
3.3 floor levels
3.4 annotations
4. ESD (bscience)- light shelves, rainwater harvesting, sun shading
4.1 sectional/schematic diagrams
4.2 report
4.3 compliance to UBBL
4.4 OTTV/RTTV/u-value, etc
4.4.1 solar/internal heat gain>> OTTV?, shading coefficient- before and after cladding
4.5 calculations of ESD, ie energy saved, rainwater harvested etc
5. 1:200 massing model, physical model?
6. precedent studies
6.1 site analysis + social issues
7. design narrative diagrams
8. natural lighting levels
9. acoustic levels, methods
10. water tank
10.1 consumption
10.2 water tank calculations
10.3 Nahrim
26. ventilation schedule

btech
11. key plan
12. door/window schedule
13. axo section
(http://www.bignatov.com/images/projects/lg_tr_house/HT_3d_section_WEB.jpg)
14. detail #1- facade (louvres) + light shelves
15. detail #2- glazing
16. detail #3- curved roof
17. fire (report)
17.1 running distance
17.2 keluar sign etc
17.3 compliance to UBBL
17.3.1 exit width
17.3.2 occupancy load
24. floor plans
25. elevations
27. cold water schematic
28. sanitary schematic

PM
18. Gannt chart/WBS
18.1 project deliverables
19. design analysis
19.1 program me viability, design suitability (suitable design for programme?), maintenance strategy (essay)
20. SWOT analysis
21. risk matrix/analysis + mitigation strategy (table) (programme, construction risks, specific to bldg)
21.2 success criteria (client's point o view)
22. site layout

Panels
23. 3D perspective + montage




... after:
1. wash bathroom floor
2. manicure
3. pedicure
4. see doctor
5. shave
6. clean room
7. practice violin
8. SLEEP
9. READ
10. go for confession
11. buy dress
12. buy high heels
13. karaoke
14. go drinking
15. exercise
16. watch the Hobbit
17. go on date
18. prepare portfolio
19. get BoostJuice smoothie
20. 
... tbc

Dear God

Dear God,
I have 2 more days. Well, less than that. I need 70 pages o report, I've got 8 now. I also need a full set o working drawings, and you've seen last night that I do not know how to draw.

I sleep. And eat. And check facebook. God, stop me if that makes it too hard for the miracle to happen.




Sarah, you need to work faster.

I'm done with

My homework and life are in such a state I really don't where to start in terms o fixing them.
God, I need a miracle. Pls pull me through.

the end

This has gtta b the longest period I've had puffy eyes since Jr1 my first year in the hostel.
Back then I dealt w it by getting used to and enjoying life. Mayb I should do the same now.


I know I've done wrong. I know I've faults. But I'm not God nor a saint and never will be. While concentrating on doing good on one end I fail to balance the other.





Meanwhile, there's studio work to be done and dinner to be eaten and cleaned up.
Dealing w my problems one by one starting w
puffy eyes- no more crying + wear specs to hide
headache- panadol and water
homework- work faster and smarter
ze darling- enough w the clinging


I can grow up, I can.