late night before final submission/day before LnL11'

... 1.30am

I think point 1 I'd like to get across is sometimes I'm not looking for solutions. In a break down kind o stage right now, and ppl're telling me to jiayou and suggested ideas to help me out.


To tell d truth I can think for myself pretty well and I'd not hesitate to ask for help if I need it.
All I want is some sympathy, a hug if I can get one, and a shoulder (virtual or otherwise) to cry on.
Cuz I really need to cry right now.




As always before final presentation, I tell myself that I've no time to emo and lose control.
But this time it's also d day before Love and Life 2011, in which I'll b a faci. I can't afford to hold it in now.. cuz there's NO WAY I'm gnna break down DURING camp.




10

15

30 mins?

That's all d time I can afford. Go and let yourself go, sarah, but b back in half an hour.

 

 

 

 

... 5.50am

Listening to Colbie Caillat I Do (as well as a whole playlist o country music @@) while working. Had my cry, had a nap on d living room sofa. Long story, bro kept virgil till I'm really really awake and working <3

4 more hours before Nic is supposed to pick up my files for printing. I think I can finish by then. Not so sure about him getting my printing done for me. Does seem like asking alot, esp if he's coming especially to collect them.

Nvm. Will do my thinking at camp, if I've time. Now is for working.

I think it's only fair

... that I note down some major events.

I'm 20!! TWENTY. No more panic attacks like I did when my friends celebrated their 20th, but I still got that sinking feeling.. a lil.
When my bday came round, somehow it felt like d end (conclusion) o my 20th instead o d beginning. Must b d end o d year...

单身二十(Singles twentieth). Mmmn-hmmn. That's very apt.


27th
Went out w my uni friends, for lunch/high tea, at Victoria Station Subang.
Food was so-so, company was fine =)

Went back to my aunt's for dinner, drove back to Kajang all by myself! Dad dozing in d backseat.
Had fried meehoon + curry, fish balls, etc. Best part was d cake I think. Secret Recipe Pecan White Chocolate something. Awesome cake <3

and Auntie bought an extra slice o durian cake just for me~~

Most o my relatives were there, including cousins Will + Pris and their son my lil nephew Eli, back fr Singapore.

D scene was a lil like my 18th, which was d day before Will and Pris's wedding..

Dad was speeding home when he went over a huge crate on d road. D guys (dad and bro) were in shock (bro: "I think I need to lie down") while d girls (sis and I) were laughing like mad.

Probably jinxed it w our laughing cuz we burst one tyre and d spare tyre wouldn't pump up. Called cousin fr Cheras for help and finally got home at 1am.

Last min bday surprise methinks. Learnt how to change a tyre though. Good experience.

28th

Bummed around at home till 4pm, when I went for LnL meeting at ASAYO.

It was Virginia's bday and after they sang d bday song for her, Edmund went "it's Sarah's bday ytd!" and they sang d song(s) for me too.

It was really sweet o them and very very nice to b loved^^. But I could just feel that blush creeping up... argh why Chinese ppl blush so easily laa =(

Later, had to cut short a Logistics meeting cuz someone was waiting in d car downstairs.

Hehe. Went on a dinner date w my sunshine at Pavilion.

Food was great, conversations went well, enjoyed myself.

Present fr Nic: Noah d Rottweiler guard dog. (ref fb for d pic)

It's another one o d things we were talking about in our conversations. I'm touched that he remembered and acted accordingly.

Muddies didn't say anything about me going out w a boy. Neither did bro and sis surprisingly.

In all honesty it was just a date (appointment?), so it's no big deal.

Dug thru my previous posts to find d day I extracted d promise that he'll take me out.. it was way back in September.

That proves one thing.. Don't think too much about what guys say, even d nice ones.

They say it, mean it, will do it... eventually. Lol.

Yep, enough w d floaty happy daze. Thanks everyone for my happy 20th <3

Time to get back to work. Doing what you love is definitely worth it.

It's 3 days later..

... and still that darn mood. Sitting alone at the V (a nice vegetarian cafe tucked away in d corner of the Lakeside Boardwalk) enjoying my treat-to-sarah-for-today, ie a cup o hot lemon tea.

The day after my cold, I developed the whole package o fever, sore throat, muscle aches, etc, and didn't get out o bed for the whole Sat.

Sun I drove to church, parked nicely and didn't mess up my accompaniment for d choir during mass (yay!).

But my whole weekend was messed up by that silly virus and work got delayed, which in turn, made me super frustrated today cuz I really wanted to submit my work and head home but couldn't cuz I've not had it done. And when I finally gave up on d last piece o work, it started raining real heavily and I couldn't get to d bus stop =.=...

Anyway.

I have one more submission to complete tonight, and then I'm FREE to do whatever I want, w/o going completely archi-free crazy, o cuz.

But to think that I can complete my studio presentation boards whenever I want, w all d research, 3D renders, re-renders, layout, re-layouts, printing, adjusting, all w/o other distractions! *sighs in contentment*

And also to sketch, draw, read archi/ID magazines, read ArchDaily daily, and finally get round to researching deconstructions!

Get used to this archi life, I can ;p

Seriously, me, an Ar.? Hmm....

random

The best thing about being friends is that you do not need to explain yourself.

I truly believe that the people you need to explain to is not worth your explaining.

Feeling not a lil miserable... DETEST the feeling o not being able to sneeze when I've got a cold.

It just won't come!! GAHHH.

Mom graciously offered to lend me her car to come to school today. Awesome that I don't have to take the bus but driving with a cold is no small business. Especially when it's raining cats and frogs out there. Oh well at least I'm not stuck on the bus. Stop complaining, sarah.

I know, I'm talking to myself again.

It's just that kind o day =(

It's supposed to b a secret...

... but I'll tell you anyway.

Not meant to compliment anyone, but if and when I get a bf, I hope we have d same 默契 as I have w my bro.

Lol bet you didn't see that coming!

No, seriously, cuz my bro and I grew up watching movies, reading books, keeping secrets fr mom and going places together, we have our own set o reference points for lame jokes, comparisons, etc.

When I think about it, I realized that we can talk endlessly (KL to Terrenganu) and he's like my (not-very-reliable-but-still-can-use-la) support when I need help w things (anything but chores).

And since he already knows I'm a bum, I don't have to "un-bum-ify" myself to fit in. Hehe.

In a way it's a lil sad that prospective bfs will hav to compete w their bro-in-law, but it's d truth what! Hahahaha~

Yea tht's about it =p.. my lil secret o d day.

STOP THINKING

Things are simple okay.

For once I get d meaning o 顺其自然.

He sent me home, I enjoyed our chat and I look forward to seeing him again. Period.

*Praying for spiritual guidance cuz I'm not going to think for myself*

ps Taking back what I said about him not being interested XD

Xmas/Bday wish list

... and I'm gnna make this sticky. Lol just kidding.

Have some items that I need but then I thought why let my cousins/aunties/friends worry their head (and they feet) off finding presents for me? Might as well give them a lil push.

Sarah wants/needs:

1. Stabilo point 88 fine pens (as many as affordable)- fr Aunt Cath (Xmas 2011)

2. Sharpies!! - a new favourite o mine (again, as many as affordable)- somehow managed to accumulate quite a number

3. Old Town White Coffee w Hazelnut 3-in-1 - mom bought.. 2-in-1s but acceptable

4. SHE SHERO album? (I've got all d songs so this is just a distant wish)

5. Washable paints- for decorating my room

6. ALOT o nice shorts- bought some for myself

7. Underwear- aunt Annie gave me some (updated 2/2/12)

8. Laptop cover (yknw, d soft bag w zip thing you put laptops in?)- fr Pak Niong (Xmas 2011)

9. Wireless mouse for lappie (or mayb I should go pick this out myself.. Don't wnna get cramps in my hand fr working w an over/undersized mouse) - dad gave me his =)

10. 48 colour Faber Castell watercolour pencils- fr Grandma (Xmas 2011)

11. Some new window drapes/curtains? I don't particularly like mine w d pale flowers...

12. An expense paid trip for my Panda to go to d laundry (according to mom it's RM20 so she refused to pay up)- mom washed him (updated 2/2/12)

.... and many more.

Wanted a new water bottle too, been using my plastic one for 2/3 Xmases now. But then dad bought me one fr d reject bin ytd! D colour's a lil... -so so-... but it holds water, fits in my bag and I'm happy =)

Goodness. I didn't know I wanted so many things.

But if I need it, say so, right? Happy shopping!